Chapter One
The body lay in perfect repose on the Victorian fainting couch, looking more like a sleeping beauty than a victim. Detective Sarah Chen had seen enough death in her ten years with the Metropolitan Police's Special Cases Unit to know that natural death never looked this peaceful. Something was very, very wrong. 'No signs of struggle, no marks on the body, and yet...' She leaned closer, studying the victim's face. Charlotte Mills, aged 28, was found by her roommate this morning, apparently having passed away in her sleep. Her expression was serene, almost blissful, but her eyes - those were what caught Sarah's attention. Behind the closed lids, her eyes were moving rapidly, as if still deep in REM sleep. "You see it too, don't you?" The voice came from behind her, rich and cultured with a slight Irish lilt. "She's still dreaming." Sarah turned to find a tall man in an impeccably tailored charcoal suit standing in the doorway. He hadn't been there a moment ago, she was certain of it. His dark hair was streaked with silver at the temples, and his eyes were an unusual shade of amber that seemed to shift color in the light. "This is a closed crime scene," she said firmly, her hand instinctively moving toward her weapon. "How did you get in here?" He smiled, but it didn't reach those strange eyes. "Dr. Marcus Thorne," he said, pulling out a card that somehow both looked official and seemed to shimmer slightly. "I'm a consulting specialist with the Department's new Oneiric Phenomena Division." "The what division?" Sarah frowned, taking the card. The moment her fingers touched it, she felt a slight electric tingle, and the letters seemed to rearrange themselves before her eyes. "Dreams, Detective Chen. We investigate crimes involving dreams." He moved into the room with fluid grace, his attention fixed on the victim. "And this is the third one this month." Sarah's mind raced. There had been two other deaths recently - both young women, both found peacefully dead in their sleep. She'd seen the reports but hadn't made the connection until now. "How do you know about those cases?" "Because I've been tracking the killer for quite some time." Thorne knelt beside the body, his eyes now definitely more gold than amber. "He's what we call a Dream Collector - someone who has learned to enter and steal dreams. But this one has developed a taste for more than just dreams. He's taking souls." Under normal circumstances, Sarah would have dismissed such talk as nonsense. But there was something about the scene, about the victim's still-moving eyes, about Thorne himself, that made the impossible seem suddenly plausible. "If you're tracking him," she said carefully, "why haven't you caught him?" Thorne's expression darkened. "Because he only appears in dreams. The physical world is my domain, but his... his is the realm of sleep. To catch him, we need someone who can walk between both worlds." He turned those unsettling eyes on her. "Someone like you." "Me?" Sarah almost laughed, but the sound died in her throat as memories she'd long suppressed began to surface. The dreams that felt too real, the nights she'd awakened to find objects moved in her room, the way she sometimes knew things she couldn't possibly know... "You've always known you were different, haven't you, Detective?" Thorne's voice was gentle now. "The dreams that come true, the hunches that turn out to be right, the way you can sometimes see how people died just by touching objects they owned..." Sarah took an involuntary step back. "How do you know about that?" "Because I've been looking for someone like you. A Natural - someone born with the ability to cross the threshold between waking and dreaming." He gestured to the victim. "Charlotte here won't be his last. There will be others, and their souls will remain trapped in an eternal dream unless we stop him." Just then, the victim's hand twitched, her fingers moving as if writing something. Sarah moved closer, watching as invisible words were traced in the air. Thorne pulled out what looked like an antique monocle and held it up. Through its lens, golden letters shimmered in the air where Charlotte's fingers moved. "Help me," Thorne read aloud. "He's coming for the others." Sarah felt a chill run down her spine. She looked at the victim's peaceful face, at those restlessly moving eyes, and made a decision that would change her life forever. "Tell me what I need to do." Thorne's smile was grim. "First, you need to learn to control your abilities. Then..." he held up the monocle, through which Sarah could now see strange symbols glowing all around the room, "you need to learn to hunt in dreams." Outside the Victorian townhouse, storm clouds gathered, and Sarah Chen, homicide detective and newly discovered dream walker, took her first step into a world where nightmares were real, and death was just another kind of sleep.
Chapter Two
The basement of the Natural History Museum was the last place Sarah expected to find the headquarters of a secret dream investigation unit. Yet here she was, following Thorne through a maze of storage rooms filled with artifacts that seemed to pulse with their own inner light. "The mundane world only sees what it expects to see," Thorne explained, using an ornate key to unlock a heavy wooden door marked 'Private Collection.' "To them, this is just museum storage. To us, it's the largest collection of dream artifacts in the Western Hemisphere." The room beyond defied physics. It stretched impossibly far, filled with glass cases containing everything from ancient masks to modern-looking devices. Floating orbs of soft light illuminated collections of bottled dreams - actual dreams, swirling like liquid mercury behind glass. "Your badge, Detective," Thorne held out his hand. Sarah hesitated before handing over her police credentials. He placed it on a strange device that looked like a Victorian music box crossed with a computer. When he returned the badge, it felt different - heavier, somehow more real. "Now you'll be able to access both worlds officially," he said. "Look at it again." The badge had changed. Alongside her regular police credentials, new text had appeared: 'Special Inspector, Oneiric Investigations Division.' The letters seemed to shift between English and something older, something that made her eyes water if she looked too long. "Before we can hunt the Dream Collector, you need to understand what you're dealing with." Thorne led her to a case containing what looked like a normal pillow. "Touch it." Sarah reached out hesitantly. The moment her fingers made contact, the world tilted. She was suddenly standing in someone else's dream - a sunny beach, but the sky was green and the sand whispered secrets. She jerked her hand back, gasping. "Good," Thorne nodded approvingly. "Most people can't pull back from their first dream artifact. You have natural barriers." "What was that?" Sarah's heart was racing. "A dream fragment from 1892. A young girl's last dream before the influenza took her." His voice softened. "We preserve them here. Dreams carry memories, emotions, sometimes even pieces of souls." "And this Dream Collector... he takes entire souls?" Sarah remembered Charlotte Mills' peaceful face and restless eyes. "He traps them in eternal dreams, feeding off their essence." Thorne moved to another case, this one containing what looked like a cracked mirror. "Each victim becomes part of his collection, their souls powering his abilities, letting him dreamwalk without natural talent like yours." Suddenly, the cracked mirror began to frost over. In its surface, Sarah saw Charlotte Mills' face, mouth open in a silent scream. Then another face appeared - another victim, she presumed - and another. "He's showing off," Thorne growled. "He knows we're investigating." The temperature in the room dropped dramatically. Frost patterns spread from the mirror to nearby cases, and Sarah heard what sounded like distant laughter. "Well, well," a voice echoed through the room, seemingly coming from everywhere and nowhere. "A new player in the game. And such interesting dreams you have, Detective Chen." Sarah felt something brush against her mind, like cold fingers trying to pry open a door. Instinctively, she slammed her mental barriers shut. The presence withdrew, but not before leaving behind an impression of amusement. "He's already caught your scent," Thorne said grimly. He pulled out a small velvet bag and removed what looked like a dreamcatcher made of silver wire and black pearls. "Wear this when you sleep. It won't keep him out entirely, but it'll stop him from stealing your dreams while you're still learning to defend yourself." As Sarah took the dreamcatcher, her fingers brushed Thorne's, and suddenly she was hit with a flash of his dreams - centuries of memories, battles fought in realms of sleep, and a profound sense of loss that made her gasp. Thorne withdrew his hand quickly. "Your abilities are stronger than I thought. We'll need to work on your control." "What are you?" Sarah asked directly. "You're not just some government consultant, are you?" Before he could answer, an alarm began to sound throughout the facility. One of the dream bottles had turned black, its contents writhing like smoke. "He's hunting again," Thorne said, already moving toward the exit. "Someone in the city has just entered their last dream. Are you ready for your first real case, Detective?" Sarah touched her new badge, feeling its power hum under her fingers. "Do we have time to save them?" "If we're lucky, we might catch him in the act. But remember - in dreams, he's incredibly powerful. One wrong move and you could lose your soul." As they rushed from the dream archive, Sarah caught one last glimpse of the cracked mirror. In its surface, she saw her own reflection smile back at her with eyes that weren't quite her own. The hunt was about to begin.
Chapter Two
The basement of the Natural History Museum was the last place Sarah expected to find the headquarters of a secret dream investigation unit. Yet here she was, following Thorne through a maze of storage rooms filled with artifacts that seemed to pulse with their own inner light. "The mundane world only sees what it expects to see," Thorne explained, using an ornate key to unlock a heavy wooden door marked 'Private Collection.' "To them, this is just museum storage. To us, it's the largest collection of dream artifacts in the Western Hemisphere." The room beyond defied physics. It stretched impossibly far, filled with glass cases containing everything from ancient masks to modern-looking devices. Floating orbs of soft light illuminated collections of bottled dreams - actual dreams, swirling like liquid mercury behind glass. "Your badge, Detective," Thorne held out his hand. Sarah hesitated before handing over her police credentials. He placed it on a strange device that looked like a Victorian music box crossed with a computer. When he returned the badge, it felt different - heavier, somehow more real. "Now you'll be able to access both worlds officially," he said. "Look at it again." The badge had changed. Alongside her regular police credentials, new text had appeared: 'Special Inspector, Oneiric Investigations Division.' The letters seemed to shift between English and something older, something that made her eyes water if she looked too long. "Before we can hunt the Dream Collector, you need to understand what you're dealing with." Thorne led her to a case containing what looked like a normal pillow. "Touch it." Sarah reached out hesitantly. The moment her fingers made contact, the world tilted. She was suddenly standing in someone else's dream - a sunny beach, but the sky was green and the sand whispered secrets. She jerked her hand back, gasping. "Good," Thorne nodded approvingly. "Most people can't pull back from their first dream artifact. You have natural barriers." "What was that?" Sarah's heart was racing. "A dream fragment from 1892. A young girl's last dream before the influenza took her." His voice softened. "We preserve them here. Dreams carry memories, emotions, sometimes even pieces of souls." "And this Dream Collector... he takes entire souls?" Sarah remembered Charlotte Mills' peaceful face and restless eyes. "He traps them in eternal dreams, feeding off their essence." Thorne moved to another case, this one containing what looked like a cracked mirror. "Each victim becomes part of his collection, their souls powering his abilities, letting him dreamwalk without natural talent like yours." Suddenly, the cracked mirror began to frost over. In its surface, Sarah saw Charlotte Mills' face, mouth open in a silent scream. Then another face appeared - another victim, she presumed - and another. "He's showing off," Thorne growled. "He knows we're investigating." The temperature in the room dropped dramatically. Frost patterns spread from the mirror to nearby cases, and Sarah heard what sounded like distant laughter. "Well, well," a voice echoed through the room, seemingly coming from everywhere and nowhere. "A new player in the game. And such interesting dreams you have, Detective Chen." Sarah felt something brush against her mind, like cold fingers trying to pry open a door. Instinctively, she slammed her mental barriers shut. The presence withdrew, but not before leaving behind an impression of amusement. "He's already caught your scent," Thorne said grimly. He pulled out a small velvet bag and removed what looked like a dreamcatcher made of silver wire and black pearls. "Wear this when you sleep. It won't keep him out entirely, but it'll stop him from stealing your dreams while you're still learning to defend yourself." As Sarah took the dreamcatcher, her fingers brushed Thorne's, and suddenly she was hit with a flash of his dreams - centuries of memories, battles fought in realms of sleep, and a profound sense of loss that made her gasp. Thorne withdrew his hand quickly. "Your abilities are stronger than I thought. We'll need to work on your control." "What are you?" Sarah asked directly. "You're not just some government consultant, are you?" Before he could answer, an alarm began to sound throughout the facility. One of the dream bottles had turned black, its contents writhing like smoke. "He's hunting again," Thorne said, already moving toward the exit. "Someone in the city has just entered their last dream. Are you ready for your first real case, Detective?" Sarah touched her new badge, feeling its power hum under her fingers. "Do we have time to save them?" "If we're lucky, we might catch him in the act. But remember - in dreams, he's incredibly powerful. One wrong move and you could lose your soul." As they rushed from the dream archive, Sarah caught one last glimpse of the cracked mirror. In its surface, she saw her own reflection smile back at her with eyes that weren't quite her own. The hunt was about to begin.
Chapter Three
They arrived at St. Bartholomew's Hospital just as the emergency lights began to flash. Sarah followed Thorne through corridors that seemed to blur at the edges of her vision, her new badge somehow clearing their path without ever being shown. "Room 307," Thorne said, his voice tight with urgency. "Young male, admitted for minor surgery, slipped into an unusual coma during recovery." The patient, David Parker, age 23, lay perfectly still on his hospital bed, his eyes moving rapidly beneath closed lids. Just like Charlotte Mills. But this time, something was different - the air around him rippled like heat waves over hot asphalt. "He's still in the process of taking him," Thorne said, pulling out what looked like an antique pocket watch. "We can follow if we're quick. Are you ready for your first dream dive?" Sarah's heart pounded. "What do I need to do?" "Take my hand. Focus on the patient. Let your consciousness slip between the moments of reality." Thorne's eyes began to glow that strange amber color. "And whatever you see in there, remember - dream logic is real logic in that world." Sarah grasped Thorne's hand and looked at David Parker. The world tilted, twisted, and suddenly... They were standing in a hospital corridor that wasn't quite right. The walls breathed slowly, the floor was made of flowing water that somehow supported their weight, and the ceiling was a swirling mass of constellation maps. "His dreamscape," Thorne explained, his voice echoing strangely. "Every dreamer creates their own reality. Look." Down the impossible corridor, a figure in a doctor's coat was leading David Parker by the hand. But the 'doctor' was wrong - his shadow moved independently, reaching out with grasping tendrils towards other dreams that floated past like soap bubbles. "The Dream Collector," Sarah whispered. As if hearing his name, the figure turned. Sarah's breath caught. His face was a beautiful mask of shifting features, never settling on one form, but his eyes... his eyes were endless pits of swirling dreams. "Ah, the new dreamer," his voice was like silk over broken glass. "And my old friend Marcus. Still trying to police the dream worlds?" Thorne stepped forward, and Sarah noticed his appearance had changed in the dream. His suit was now made of living shadows, and wings of dark light stretched from his shoulders. "Let him go, Collector. You've taken enough souls." The Collector laughed, the sound causing the hospital walls to crack, leaking golden dream-light. "Taken? Oh, Marcus, you still don't understand. They give themselves to me. Show her, David." The young man turned, and Sarah saw his eyes were glassy with bliss. "It's beautiful here," he said dreamily. "All my pain is gone. All my fears. He takes them all away." "By taking everything you are," Sarah found herself saying. She took a step forward, instinctively reaching for her police badge. In the dream, it transformed into a shield of pure light. "David, this isn't real healing. It's theft." The Collector's face rippled with anger. "You dare interrupt my collection?" The corridor began to twist, reality bending around them. "Let me show you what happens to those who interfere with my work." Suddenly, the floor beneath Sarah liquefied completely. She started to sink, but instead of water, she was drowning in dreams - thousands of them, each containing a fragment of someone's stolen soul. She saw Charlotte Mills dancing endlessly in a ballroom of mirrors, saw other victims trapped in perfect moments that had become eternal prisons. "Sarah!" Thorne's voice cut through the chaos. "Remember - dream logic! Make your own rules!" Dream logic. Sarah closed her eyes, focusing on her years of police work, of protecting people, of solving puzzles. When she opened them, her badge-shield had transformed into a sword of pure thought. With a cry, she slashed through the dream-flood. Reality reasserted itself - or at least, this dream's version of reality. She stood on solid ground again, facing the Collector. "Impressive," he purred, but she sensed uncertainty in his voice. "You're stronger than the usual dreamers Marcus recruits. Perhaps we could make a deal..." "No deals," Sarah said firmly. She could feel her power growing, reshaping the dream around them. "David, look at what he really is. Look with your heart, not your fears." For a moment, David's eyes cleared. The Collector's beautiful mask slipped, revealing something ancient and hungry beneath. David screamed, pulling away from the creature's grasp. The Collector snarled, his form shifting into something monstrous. "If I can't have him willingly..." Shadows exploded from his body, reaching for David. What happened next seemed to unfold in slow motion. Thorne spread his dark wings, shielding David. Sarah's sword of thought became a net of light, trapping some of the shadows. But the Collector himself simply... stepped sideways, vanishing into a door that appeared in the air. "Sweet dreams, detectives," his voice lingered behind. "We'll meet again soon. After all, Sarah, your dreams are particularly... appetizing." The dreamscape began to dissolve. Sarah felt Thorne grab her arm, pulling her back through layers of reality. Then... They were standing in the hospital room again. David Parker was awake, gasping, but alive and whole. A nurse was rushing in, responding to his sudden revival. "We saved one," Thorne said quietly. "But he'll be angry now. And he'll come for you." Sarah touched her badge, still feeling echoes of its dream-power. "Good," she said grimly. "Because I have some questions for him about Charlotte Mills. And about what you really are, Marcus Thorne." Thorne's expression was unreadable. "All in time, Detective. For now, you need to rest. Tomorrow, your real training begins." As they left the hospital, Sarah could have sworn she saw her shadow move independently, reaching for dreams that floated just beyond the edge of sight. The world would never look quite the same again.
Chapter Four
Sarah's apartment looked different when she returned that night. The shadows seemed deeper, more alive, and ordinary objects cast reflections that didn't quite match reality. The dreamcatcher Thorne had given her pulsed softly in her pocket, responding to the changed way she now saw the world. She was exhausted but afraid to sleep. The Collector's words echoed in her mind: 'Your dreams are particularly appetizing.' Instead, she spread her case files across the coffee table - photographs of Charlotte Mills, the other victims, and now David Parker's medical records. A soft chime from her badge interrupted her concentration. The metal had grown warm, and when she touched it, words appeared in that strange shifting script: 'Archive. Now. Emergency.' The museum was different at night. Sarah's new badge led her through doors that hadn't existed during her first visit, down stairs that seemed to descend far deeper than the building's foundation should allow. She found Thorne in a circular room she hadn't seen before, surrounded by floating screens of light that showed various dreamscapes. "We have a problem," he said without preamble. "The Collector's attack pattern has changed. Look." The screens shifted, showing a map of the city overlaid with points of light. "Each light is a dreamer," Thorne explained. "The blue ones are normal dreams. The red..." He gestured, and several dots pulsed an angry crimson. "Those are nightmares being actively shaped by outside forces." "He's attacking multiple targets at once?" "No." Thorne's expression was grim. "He's leaving traps. Dream-snares. Anyone who falls asleep in these areas risks being pulled into a constructed nightmare. He's trying to overwhelm our ability to respond." Sarah studied the pattern of red dots. "They're forming a shape... a symbol?" "A summoning circle." A new voice joined them. Sarah turned to see an elderly woman emerging from what appeared to be a door made of starlight. Her eyes were milk-white, but she moved with absolute certainty. "Sarah, meet Dr. Eleanor Price, the Archive's keeper," Thorne said. "And yes, she's blind in the waking world, but in dreams..." "I see everything," Eleanor finished. Her unseeing eyes fixed on Sarah with uncomfortable accuracy. "Including what our friend the Collector is truly planning. He's not just taking souls anymore. He's building toward something larger." She gestured, and the room transformed around them. They were suddenly standing in what looked like a vast library, but the books were made of dreams, their pages flowing like liquid memory. "Every dream ever archived is stored here," Eleanor explained. "Including the oldest nightmares of humanity. The Collector isn't just a thief - he's trying to wake something that should stay sleeping. Something we locked away centuries ago." She pulled a book from the shelf, and its pages burst open, projecting a scene of ancient horror - a time when the boundary between dreams and reality was thinner, when nightmares could walk in daylight. "The Last Nightmare," Thorne said softly. "We thought it was safely contained, but if he completes that summoning circle..." A sudden tremor ran through the Archive. One of the red dots on the map had grown larger, pulsing violently. "He's starting," Eleanor's voice was urgent. "Sarah, you need to see something before you face this." She pressed her fingers to Sarah's forehead, and suddenly... She was in a memory. A younger Thorne stood with a woman who looked remarkably like Sarah herself, facing down a shadow that threatened to devour the world. The woman - another dream detective? - sacrificed herself to help seal away the nightmare. "Your mother," Eleanor's voice echoed in her mind. "She was one of us. Her sacrifice helped lock away the Last Nightmare, but the Collector has never stopped trying to free it. And now he's found you - her daughter, with her power." The vision ended abruptly as another tremor shook the Archive. More red dots were pulsing on the map. "Why didn't you tell me?" Sarah demanded, turning to Thorne. "Because I promised her I'd keep you away from this life," he replied, pain evident in his voice. "But now the Collector knows who you are, and we're running out of time." "The summoning circle will be complete at the next new moon," Eleanor added. "Three days from now. If the Last Nightmare wakes..." "Then we stop him before that happens," Sarah said firmly, though her mind was reeling from the revelations. "How do we break these dream-snares?" "It's dangerous," Thorne warned. "Each one is a trap designed specifically for dream walkers. If you're caught..." "Then you'll just have to watch my back," Sarah said. She touched her badge, feeling its power respond. "Where do we start?" Eleanor smiled, her blind eyes somehow twinkling. "First, you need to understand what you truly inherited from your mother. It's time you learned about the true history of the dream walkers - and why the Collector fears your bloodline above all others." As if in response to Eleanor's words, the books around them began to glow, their pages rustling with the weight of secrets about to be revealed. In the map above, the red dots pulsed like a countdown to catastrophe, and Sarah realized she had less than three days to master powers she never knew she had. The true game was about to begin.
Hjem for Maren og Winnie Pressley (1)
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Hjemsted for Maren og Winnie Pressley
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Hvis savlen i hendes mundvinkel var en indikation, var Marens forsøg på at holde sig vågen, indtil Winnie kom hjem fra sin babysitning, en episk fiasko, som hendes datter ville sige. Maren kiggede på den bærbare computer, der stadig sad på hendes bryst, og som ligeledes var gået i dvaletilstand. Med et hurtigt tryk oversvømmede den internetsøgning, hun havde startet, inden hun faldt i søvn, hendes nethinde.
Af sur nysgerrighed havde hun googlet det usædvanlige navn på den professor, hun havde mødt tidligere på aftenen, da hun uanmeldt havde været forbi sin chefs hus for at aflevere deres tunede espressomaskine. Som den mangeårige personlige assistent for Alicia Stone, en af de mest magtfulde kvinder inden for teknologi, mødte Maren hele tiden berømtheder og magtpersoner. Denne professor fra Boston virkede ikke som nogen særlig person - sandsynligvis bare endnu en brik i Alicias udspekulerede plan for at sikre hendes datter Brooke optagelse på Stanford. Men da fristen for tidlig optagelse nu kun var tre dage væk, var han endnu en påmindelse om, at Stanford var forbudt for Winnie, i tilfælde af at Maren havde overset alle de tidligere advarsler.
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Men hendes skæve grin forsvandt i det øjeblik, hun åbnede døren. Det var ikke hendes datter; ikke engang tæt på. Ved synet af den uniformerede politibetjent, der stod under det svage, dødt insektfyldte vergelys, lukkede Maren instinktivt den tykke cardigan, hun havde på over sin slidte pyjamas. "Hej, betjent. Kan jeg hjælpe dig?" Selv om Maren var blevet opdraget til at tro, at politiet var verdens bedste hjælpere, havde Marens eneste rigtige kontakt med politiet for mange år siden givet hende et helt andet indtryk.
"Godaften, frue. Jeg er betjent Wilson. Er De fru Pressley?"
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"Frue, jeg er ked af at fortælle Dem dette, men Deres datter var ude for en alvorlig ulykke."
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"Som jeg sagde, har hun været ude for en alvorlig ulykke. På en elektrisk scooter," sagde betjent Wilson. "Hun er blevet bragt til Memorial Hospital. Jeg er ked af det, men jeg har ingen oplysninger om hendes tilstand."
"Men hun er i live, ikke?"
"De har ikke delt nogen detaljer med mig. Jeg blev kun bedt om at underrette hendes forældre og tage dem med på hospitalet." Betjent Wilson flyttede sin vægt og så ud til at kigge ind over Marens skulder i huset. "Er Winnies far hjemme?"
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Han nikkede. "De vil gerne følge mig til Memorial nu, frue."
Maren var frosset på stedet.
"Frue?"
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Hjem for Maren og Winnie Pressley (2)
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Maren fulgte de blinkende lygter fra betjent Wilsons patruljevogn foran hende, mens de snoede sig ned ad sidegaderne i hendes beskedne kvarter, et af de få tilbage i Seattles teknologiske boomlandskab, og ud på den hovedvej, der skulle føre dem til Memorial Hospital. Hun forsøgte at koncentrere sig om at holde en passende afstand mellem deres biler, men hendes hjerne nægtede at samarbejde, og hun rystede ukontrolleret, mens hendes frygt bombarderede hende den ene efter den anden. Hvad nu hvis Winnie døde, før hun nåede frem, og hun aldrig fik sagt farvel? Hvad nu hvis hun var lammet eller hjernedød? Og selv om hun vidste, at det var den mindste af hendes bekymringer, hvordan skulle hun så nogensinde klare de astronomiske lægeregninger, uanset hvad der skete med Winnie?
Selv om hun havde arbejdet for Alicia i mere end ti år og havde overlevet alle andre ansatte i huset, havde sygeforsikring aldrig været en del af aftalen. Maren havde undersøgt muligheden for at få dem dækket i det forgangne år, men selv de subsidierede priser, der var tilgængelige på statens sundhedsudveksling, havde virket for skræmmende. Hun havde satset på deres gode helbred og i stedet brugt pengene på at udskifte bilens gearkasse, vel vidende, at de bare skulle få Winnie på college, hvor Winnie i det mindste ville være dækket af en mere overkommelig universitetsordning. Ville hospitalet overhovedet behandle Winnie? Skulle hun sende en sms til Alicia? Som medlem af bestyrelsen for Memorial Hospital kunne Alicia sikre, at Winnie fik den behandling, hun havde brug for. Alicia havde altid hævdet, at hun elskede Winnie som en anden datter. Før alle de sidste par ugers collegevanvid ville Maren ikke have tøvet med at bede hende om hjælp. Men nu håbede Maren, at det var et opkald, som hun ikke ville være nødt til at foretage.
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Er du allerede blevet opereret? "Hvilken slags operation?" Marens stemme knækkede. "Det betyder, at hun er i live, ikke?"
"Jeg er ked af det, men jeg har ikke flere oplysninger. En læge skulle snart være ude," sagde ekspedienten. "Åh, vent. Mrs. Pressley? Det ser ud til, at vi ikke har din datters forsikringsoplysninger i computeren. Har du dem med dig?"
"Øh nej, det har jeg ikke. Jeg forlod mit hus så hurtigt." Maren gjorde et nummer ud af at klappe sine lommer. "Det vil ikke påvirke hendes pleje, vel?"
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"Ja, selvfølgelig," sagde Maren. "Jeg skal nok tage mig af det, så snart jeg kan." Det var ikke ligefrem en løgn, selv om det mere var et ønsket udsagn end en konkret plan.
Maren scannede venteområdet. Der var en ung familie med tre børn, der løb frit omkring, en uglet skægget mand, der enten var hjemløs eller hipster, og en kvinde, der sad på den anden side af lokalet iført en sort puffrakke og en baseballkasket. Maren fandt en ensom plads, langt væk fra de andre, med frit udsyn til "Uautoriseret adgang"-dørene, og gik i gang med at vente.
Der gik en halv time, og Maren bad igen skrankepersonalet om oplysninger og studerede hendes ansigtsudtryk for at finde tegn på, at Winnie ville være okay. Men der var stadig intet fra kirurgen, og hverken ekspedientens ord eller hendes kropssprog afslørede noget som helst. Da hun gik tilbage til sin plads, bemærkede Maren, at den unge familie og den hjemløse/hipsterfyr var blevet erstattet af nye bekymrede ansigter, men kvinden på den anden side af lokalet fortsatte sin egen ensomme vagt. Maren undrede sig over, hvad hendes historie var. Hvem ventede hun på? Maren havde en fornemmelse af, at kvinden også vurderede hende. Hun forsøgte at trøste sig med, at hun ikke var helt alene med sin bekymring, men det nyttede ikke noget. Hun satte sig ned og lod hovedet falde ned i hænderne.
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MgaXren
TRE UGER TIL ANSØGNINGSFRISTEN FOR TIDLIG OPTAGELSE PÅ STANFORD
Maren Pressley havde gået rundt på gangene på Elliott Bay Academy i Seattle flere gange om ugen i de sidste mere end seks år, men normalt gjorde hun det i sin rolle som Alicias personlige assistent og opfyldte de mange frivillige forpligtelser, som hendes chef ikke havde til hensigt at gøre selv. Faktisk kunne Maren nok tælle på to hænder det antal gange, hun havde optrådt på campus blot som Winnies mor. I modsætning til de fleste af de andre EBA-mødre havde Maren meget lidt fritid, og når det lykkedes hende at få et par minutter til sig selv, var hun utilbøjelig til at bruge dem på at stikke næsen i Winnies akademiske sager. Det havde hendes datter godt under kontrol.
Men klokken syv i morges havde Maren modtaget en indkaldelse fra studievejlederkontoret. Det var en anmodning - eller var det et krav - om, at både Maren og Winnie skulle mødes med Winnies studievejleder samme morgen. EBA-mødre havde ofte spekuleret i, at skolens syv studievejledere havde stort set ukontrolleret magt til at sortere eleverne ind på eliteuniversiteter. På Back to School Night havde Maren overhørt en gruppe forældre udveksle historier om at droppe alting, når college counseling-kontoret ringede, uanset om de var teknologiske titaner midt i forhandlinger, læger, der foretog en rutinemæssig operation, eller endda, næsten utroligt nok, en velhavende fraskilt kvinde, der skulle have foretaget en ny operation af skamlæberne. (At være stort set usynlig på EBA havde sine sjove fordele.) Så Maren mente, at hun skyldte Winnie at dukke op denne morgen. Hun kiggede på uret på vej ind på kontoret og håbede, at uanset hvad grunden til mødet var, kunne det blive løst hurtigt, så hun kunne komme i gang med at arbejde på Alicias enorme to-do-liste for i dag.
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"Ja," sagde fru Lawson med et voksende smil. "Jeg kan stadig ikke tro, at du er gammel nok til at være Winnies mor." Hun vendte sig mod Winnie. "Du er så heldig. Min mor fik mig som 43-årig, og folk har altid troet, at hun var min bedstemor. Det var så pinligt! Jeg mener, bortset fra den måde, I to klæder jer på, kunne I sagtens være søstre."
"Hvis jeg havde en mønt..." Winnie grinede.
Som 35-årig var Maren udmærket klar over, at hun stak ud på EBA: eliteforberedelsesskolens udgave af en øm tommelfinger. I Seattle med høj indkomst var de fleste mødre på hendes alder stadig i gang med at amme babyer eller jagte småbørn. Selv om Maren forsøgte ikke at gøre opmærksom på sig selv, adskilte hendes forholdsvis unge hud hende fra de andre mødre på EBA's seniorer, hvoraf de fleste var en generation ældre. Men uanset hvilken lille fordel Maren fik med sin naturlige glød, mistede hun hundrede gange mere med sin åbenlyse mangel på nogen af Seattles subtile tegn på status. Elektriske luksusbiler. Sportstøj kombineret med designerhåndtasker. Prestigefyldte faglige grader, som man kan bruge i en afslappet samtale, helst i stenografi ("Min marketingprofessor på Kellogg plejede at sige...") eller, endnu bedre, i akronym ("Da jeg gik på HBS..."). Maren kunne næsten ikke vente til det kommende forår, hvor Winnie og Brooke, Alicias datter, ville blive færdiguddannet fra EBA, og Maren kunne se dette sted forsvinde i bakspejlet for altid.
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Hendes defaitistiske tone virkede på Maren som uoverensstemmende med den "Vi gør dine drømme til virkelighed"-stemning, der herskede på college-rådgivningskontoret. "OKAY?" Maren stak sine forhårede hænder ind under lårene og trykkede sine klipede negle ned i de smagfulde uldbukser, som hun havde købt i Value Village sidste år, da hun afleverede en gigantisk ladning af kasserede genstande fra Alicias og Brookes garderobeskabe. Selv om det nogle gange krævede al hendes viljestyrke, var Marens politik med hensyn til aflagte tøj fra sin arbejdsgiver streng - som i aldrig nogensinde at gøre det, selv ikke for Winnie.
Den eneste gang, hun havde brudt denne regel, var i Winnies niende klasse, kort efter at hun var begyndt på EBA. Winnie havde tigget Maren om at lade hende beholde en af Brookes udtjente ting med mærkerne på stadigvæk - en sød, lyserød og eftertænksomt slidt sweatshirt. Allerede næste dag havde hun haft den på i skole, men i det øjeblik hun kom ind ad døren efter træning i crosscountry, havde hun taget den ud af sin sportstaske og skåret den i stykker. Det var omkring den tid, hvor Brooke uforklarligt var begyndt at isætte Winnie efter flere års tæt venskab. Maren havde forstået, at tingene ikke var så godt mellem dem på det tidspunkt, men hun havde aldrig kendt Brooke som ondskabsfuld. Tilsyneladende var Winnie også blevet overrasket.
"Hvilke nyheder, Ms. Lawson?" Winnie spurgte sin rådgiver.
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Ms Lawson vippede hovedet op, som om hun konsulterede en teleprompter på loftet. "Nå, øh, ser du..." Hun skubbede ærmet op og afslørede en lille sort sommerfugletatovering på indersiden af sin underarm. "Fire atletikstuderende - faktisk en EBA-rekord! - har forpligtet sig til Stanford. Nu ved jeg godt, at vi har talt om, at Winnie har søgt tidligt ind på Stanford siden sidste år, og fristen er selvfølgelig kun tre uger væk. Men, ja, her er den uheldige del. Vi har været i kontakt med Stanford admissions og har erfaret, at de kun har planer om at optage yderligere én studerende fra EBA i år."
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"Men tog de ikke syv elever sidste år?" Winnie spurgte, mens hendes stemme steg.
Ms. Lawson nikkede. "Jo, men det viser sig, at de virkelig presser på for at øge deres udbytte af folkeskoler i år, så de kan ikke tage så mange børn fra førsteklasses privatskoler som EBA, som de gjorde sidste år."
"Men hele grunden til, at jeg flyttede fra folkeskolen til EBA, var for at forbedre mine chancer for at komme ind på Stanford."
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Fru Lawson vred sig i sin stol. "Øh, ja. Under normale omstændigheder ville Winnie selvfølgelig være en fremragende kandidat til optagelse, som vi har diskuteret. Men da antallet af resterende pladser er så begrænset på grund af det usædvanlige antal a-MAZE-ing atleter i år, er der andre, øh, overvejelser. Der kan være studerende, som har endnu stærkere kroge end Winnie. Det, jeg prøver at sige, er, at selv om Winnie frit kan tage chancen, tror vi, at hun måske er bedre tjent med at søge et sted med lidt mindre intern konkurrence. Når alt kommer til alt, er første-generationskrogen guld værd på ethvert Ivy Plus college."
Ms Lawson må have forvekslet Marens udtryk af afsky med et udtryk af forvirring.
"Ivy Plus," fortsatte hun, "er det udtryk, vi bruger til at tale om Ivy League-skoler plus Ivy-lignende skoler som Stanford, MIT, Caltech og University of Chicago. I modsætning til Winnie kan det være, at nogle andre EBA-studerende i modsætning til Winnie har deres bedste kroge med Stanford alene."
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"Men, Ms. Lawson, De sagde selv sidste forår, at jeg havde den bedste chance for at komme ind på Stanford af alle på EBA. Hvorfor siger du, at jeg skal finde et andet sted og ikke en anden elev?"
"Winnie, du ved, at jeg ikke kan tale om andre elever med dig."
"Men siger du det samme til alle?" Winnie pressede på, med bævende stemme.
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"Du ved godt, hvad det her handler om. Hvordan kan du bare give op på den måde? Det her er min fremtid. Hvorfor skulle piger som Krissie eller Brooke få en plads frem for mig? Deres mødre gør alt andet end at tage deres prøver for dem. Jeg har fortjent det her helt alene."
Ms. Lawson konsulterede sin computer og så op med et smil. "Måske skulle du se det her som en mulighed, Winnie. Din karakter er så stærk, at jeg er sikker på, at vi kan finde et universitet, der vil tilbyde dig betydelige meritpenge. Hvad med University of Oregon eller Case Western? De har været ekstremt generøse på det seneste for at lokke stjerneelever som dig til."
"Hvorfor går du ud fra, at vi ikke kan betale for college?" Winnie's tone var bidende. Hun udfordrede aldrig autoriteter på denne måde. "Bare fordi vi ikke er rige som alle andre her, betyder det ikke, at vi har brug for velgørenhed."
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Winnie fulgte Maren til parkeringspladsen, selv om hun allerede var sent på den til anden time. I det øjeblik Winnie smækkede døren i passagersiden, løb tårerne ned ad kinderne på hende. "Det er ikke fair, mor."
Det var fandeme ikke fair. Marens hånd rystede af vrede, da hun satte nøglen i tændingslåsen. Hun havde i årevis fundet sig i at blive behandlet som en andenrangsborger på denne skole, så Winnie kunne nå sit fulde potentiale. Men dette ville være en hård nok pille for Winnie at sluge uden at tilføje hendes egen galde til blandingen. Hun skulle være den rolige, stabile. "Livet er ikke retfærdigt, Win." Maren rakte over for at røre ved Winnies skulder, men Winnie trak på skuldrene af hende. "Hør her. Jeg gør det bedste jeg kan, men jeg kan ikke kontrollere alting. Hvis der kun er én plads på Stanford, så står der Brookes navn på den, ikke dit. Hvis du overhovedet ansøger, kan jeg garantere, at Alicia fyrer mig. Det kan vi ikke risikere." Hun startede motoren, som spruttede og rumlede, før den kom i gang, og ventede på, at Winnie tog sig sammen og tog af sted til undervisningen.
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Kapitel 1 (3)
Det var det mest Winnie havde udtalt sig om sin EBA-oplevelse siden første år, da Brooke og alle hendes venner købte bikinier til 1000 dollars til deres vinterferie. I skarp kontrast hertil var Winnies ferieplan at hjælpe Maren med hendes hundeluftningsklienter, så hun havde råd til det dyre friluftsudstyr, der stod på pakkelisten til EBA's samfundstjenesteudflugt for at rense strandene i det nordvestlige Stillehav. Ironien i at samle hundelort op i en uge for at finansiere en "mulighed" for at samle endnu mere affald op undgik hende ikke.
"Helt ærligt, Winnie, jeg har aldrig forstået, hvorfor Stanford er så vigtigt for dig. Enhver uddannelse vil åbne døre og give dig masser af valgmuligheder. Hvorfor er kun den ene god nok? Er det ikke muligt, at du køber ind på en myte?"
Winnie snøftede og kiggede sidelæns på sin mor. "Du ved, den Stanford T-shirt, som jeg har haft for evigt?"
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"Ja," svarede Winnie. "Jeg kan stadig huske den dag, Alicia tog den med tilbage til mig, efter at hun havde taget Brooke med til Stanford. Da vi var omkring otte år? Jeg kan huske hver eneste detalje, hvordan hun gav mig den, lagde sine hænder på mine skuldre og låste sine øjne i mine. Hun lagde stor vægt på at imponere mig med, at Stanford er den bedste skole i landet, og at hvis jeg arbejdede meget hårdt, kunne jeg måske komme derhen og få succes ligesom hende. Det har jeg tænkt på så mange gange. Det er ikke fordi, jeg ikke fuldt ud værdsætter dine valg, så tag det ikke på den forkerte måde, men jeg vil bare have mere. Jeg vil være super succesfuld som Alicia og have alles respekt."
Maren vendte sig om ved den utilsigtede fornærmelse.
"Ikke at folk ikke respekterer dig... Nå, men Alicia har altid sagt, at jeg var som en datter for hende. Bare fordi Stanford sagde, at der kun skulle være ét barn mere, betyder det ikke, at Alicia ikke kan finde ud af at finde en måde at omgå det på. Jeg mener, hvad hvis hun fik tvillinger? Tror du, hun ville lade den ene komme ind og ikke den anden? Hun har altid sagt, at det var hendes drøm, at vi skulle tage derhen sammen. Brooke og jeg plejede at tale om det hele tiden."
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"Ja, ja, grammatiknazist. Dette er ikke en college-interview. Det er en con-ver-sa-tion."
"Undskyld," sagde Maren og skældte sig selv ud over, at hun refleksivt valgte den forkerte kamp. "Vi er nødt til at tænke i store baner her. Jeg ved, at du føler, at Alicia altid har været din mester, men du må forstå, at intet - og ingen - vil stå i vejen for hendes ambitioner for Brooke."
"Hvis du bare vidste, hvordan Brooke smadrer sin mor over for alle. Det er virkelig barskt. Jeg mener, Alicia prøver bare at hjælpe hende. Brooke ved ikke, hvor heldig hun er. Og hun ønsker ikke engang at gå på Stanford. Og hun har et gennemsnit på B-plus. Det burde være totalt diskvalificerende."
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"Nej."
"Hvad mener du? Nej til hvilken af dem?"
"Jeg mener, N-O. Nej. Som i "på ingen måde". Til ingen af dem. Du har altid sagt, at jeg skulle gå efter mine drømme. Nå, det er det, jeg vil gøre. Jeg vil ikke flytte til østkysten. Jeg vil gå på Stanford. Jeg skal nok finde en måde, med eller uden din hjælp."
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"Vil du ikke nok, mor? Jeg vil bare have min fair chance på Stanford. Den ret har jeg i det mindste fortjent."
Maren kørte fingrene gennem sit glatte blonde hår og forsøgte at samle sine tanker, men hendes hjerne var lige så forvirret som de æg, hun havde pisket op to timer tidligere til familien Stone. Det eneste, hun vidste med sikkerhed, var, at hun havde brug for mere tid. "Hør, lad os bare sætte en nål i det her i et par dage. Giv mig i det mindste en weekend til at tænke det igennem?"
"Men apps skal afleveres om tre uger! Skal jeg spilde en hel uge, når jeg kunne arbejde på mine essays? Det er jo vanvittigt!"
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"Nej, det skal jeg ikke. Disse essays er specifikke for Stanford." Winnie prustede. "Hvis du havde været bare en tiendedel så opmærksom på mit liv som de andre mødre er, ville du vide det her. Jeg mener, jeg beder dig ikke om at være en psykopat som Krissie Vernons mor, men du skal i det mindste kende forskellen på Common App og supplerende essays."
Endelig blussede Marens temperament op. Hun slog på rattet. "Jeg har ikke den slags tid, som de andre mødre har til at være besat af deres døtre. Du af alle mennesker ved, at jeg har et vanvittigt fuldtidsjob - og tre sidegevinster oveni - og jeg kæmper stadig for at betale alle vores regninger." Maren hævede sjældent stemmen over for Winnie. Hun kiggede ud af vinduet i førersiden et øjeblik og forsøgte at dæmpe sin tone. "Hør, jeg har altid stolet på, at du beder om den hjælp, du har brug for. Og du er aldrig ubehagelig på den her måde."
Winnie så ærgerlig ud. "Det må du undskylde. Du har ret. Jeg tror, det var mig, der prøvede at bede om hjælp og totalt ødelagde det. Det er bare - jeg har aldrig ønsket mig noget mere end det her. Vil du ikke nok prøve at se det på min måde? Drømme lidt større?"
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Winnie trak sin rygsæk fra mellem benene og op på skødet og fumlede med lynlåsen. "Det tror jeg nok," sagde hun med et misfornøjet skuldertræk. "Nå, men jeg skal i hvert fald til regning. Vi ses i aften."
Stødet fra bildøren, der smækkede, gav genlyd inde i Maren. Hun så Winnie løbe af sted til klassen, hendes lange, slanke krop blev fremhævet af hendes standard skoletøj, som bestod af en hoodie og skinny jeans med flere huller end stof. Inden Maren bakkede ud fra parkeringspladsen, kiggede hun i bakspejlet og bemærkede de mørke rande under øjnene. Winnie mente måske ikke, at Maren havde haft store drømme for dem, men hendes naivitet fik Maren til at føle, at hendes brystkasse var ved at eksplodere. Hele Marens voksne liv havde været viet til at sikre Winnies fremtid. Det sidste hun ønskede var at nægte sin datter det eneste, hun virkelig ønskede sig, men alligevel var det, Winnie ønskede sig, 100 procent umuligt. Uden Alicia ville hun ikke have nogen indkomst, ingen jobmuligheder, intet sikkerhedsnet. Når Winnie var færdig med college og var ude på egen hånd, ville Alicias magt over Maren forsvinde. Men indtil videre vidste Maren, at hun ikke havde noget valg. Hun var nødt til at overbevise sin datter om at søge ABS-Anywhere But Stanford.
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